涟漪

不知何故
心中那一面平静的水
又被掀起涟漪
遗失已久的感觉
渐渐涌上心头

多久了？
自从那天后
从未有过的感觉
又再浮现

心乱如麻
我该如何是好？
是像往常一般
把这种感觉 彻底的从心中消除
还是
放手一博?

temperary stress relieve

i will definitely stressed out again when i got my exam results.
i think i will be failing couple of units this sem.
but what the heck, i am going redang tomorrow night.
just fucking throw away the aftermath of doing the exam paper badly.
i am so gonna enjoy this trip first before i got back to penang.
which i bet i will enjoy even more in my new house.

生平第一次

考试压力大到我想呕。
5小时后，考试就结束了，真想把时间调快一点。
这个学期承受了无比的压力。
就快窒息了。
我不想因为自己的懒惰和不够努力，白白浪费了父母供的学费。
我不想“肥佬”啊！
祈求上天给我力量。

Pressure?

somebody can say something like "i scare i cannot pass this exam" with their mouth smiling while i can't even imagine what will happened to me when i get the exam paper. in fact, i never feel this much pressure like this time before despite i went through lots of though exams. not only because of i don't know anything about the exam, not only because this is the super though one; it is mainly because of the people around me. sometimes i feel that i am too small to be compare to them, they study hard to get a HD, i study hard hoping i won't fail. the gap is just too big. they actually mean "i scare i cannot get a good results" when they says they are afraid of failing. sometimes i feel i didn't know who are them already. sometimes i didn't even know who am i.

finger crossed

tomorrow is the day
the journey begins...