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Friday, November 20, 2009

怎麼沒有好男人

一個小男孩的故事
十歲以前,就不說了,無非是淘氣和不懂事。



十三、四歲的時候,開始對女孩有好感,
但是那時候他離女孩遠遠的,
並且以討厭女孩自居,生怕被同伴嘲笑。


十五歲的時候,聽到大人們說某某男人好花,把女朋友甩了,
女孩自殺了他覺得這人真狠毒,
自己將來一定要做個痴情的男人,一定要一生只愛一個人。


十六歲的時候,他喜歡上了一個女孩,但是他不敢和她說。
仍然和往常一樣,臟兮兮的 在灰土飛揚的操場上踢球。

只在女孩走出校門的時候,躲在二層的窗戶上看她的背影,
他覺得她一定是個天使。


十七歲的時候,有個女孩喜歡上了他,但是他離她很遠,
他心裡面只有自己愛的那個女孩,他覺得看別的女孩都是對她的不忠


十八歲的時候,看了一個MTV,感動得想哭,他想,如果自己的女孩失去了雙眼,
他一定會像男主角會毫不猶豫的把自己的眼睛給她,讓她能看到光明。


十九歲的時候,高考了。 終于和自己暗戀的女孩分別,坐火車去學校的時候,
感覺自己離她越來越遠,心像被掏空了一樣。還在想自己一定不會忘記她,
等到自己成功以後一定要去找她。


二十歲的時候,聽到有人講黃色笑話,覺得這人真可恥。


二十一歲的時候,她的回信中告訴他,自己有了男朋友
偷偷的哭了一個晚上。


二十二歲的時候,他向一個女孩表白,女孩說「你是個好人,可是我還小。」
他想,我的確是個好人,他說「沒關係,我可以等你。」
心想「我不會像那些花心的人一樣,三年五年我也能等。


二十三歲的時候,說自己還小的女孩和一個帥哥戀愛了。
他很納悶,長大原來可以這樣快。


二十四歲的時候,他又向一個女孩表白,女孩說「你是個好人,可是我並不適合你。」
他納悶很久,我是好人你怎麼還不適合我呢 ?


二十五歲的時候,他又追求一個女孩,女孩接受了他。
他開始很幸福的為未來拼搏,他想「一時的開心只是暫時的,只有努力拼搏,
他和她才能有快樂的未來。」
但是,半年以後,女孩和他分手了。
只是因為另外一個男孩會說讓她開心的話。
女孩說「你是個好人 ,是我對不起你。」
他似乎明白問題所在,他是個好人。


二十六歲的時候,他開始墮落,交網友。
打扮得時尚而酷,而且漸漸的學習著討好女孩 的話。不久,他有了個女朋友,
雖然他對她也很好,可是,他心裡知道,自己並不愛她。


二十七歲的時候,他和女孩分手了.他對女孩說「你是個好女孩,是我對不起你」

二十八歲的時候,他嘗試了一夜情,發現別人能做的,自己也一樣。

二十九歲的時候,他學會了講黃色笑話,並且以看旁邊的女孩子臉紅為樂趣。

三十歲的時候,他忽然發現自己變得很有能力追求到女孩,但是卻沒有了愛的能力。



於是他在自己QQ上寫下了如下的話

其實每個男孩,本來都是想做一個感情專一的好男人的
其實每個男孩,本來看女孩子都是看臉而不是胸部
其實每個男孩,本來都是不會講黃色笑話
其實每個男孩,本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠的



只是,沒有任何女孩愛這樣的男孩,她們覺得這樣的男孩太幼稚,太古板,沒有情趣。


於是男孩開始改變,變成女孩喜歡的那種。
嘴角掛著壞壞的笑。
玩世不恭或者幽默。



開始學會說甜言蜜語而不是心裡想說的話。

開始學會假裝關心。
學會給女孩送小飾物討好她。
學會如何追求,如何把握愛情。
或者看破紅塵,游戲情場,成為女人很恨的那種男人。


他們可以很容易俘獲女孩子的心。
但是他們也會在黑的夜里叼著煙流淚。


心裡有愛的時候,沒有女孩有了女孩,永遠沒有了愛的感覺 -


在聽到女人抱怨世上沒有一個好男人的時候,
他們不會再去努力做個好男人,只是微笑著擦肩而過。

Sunday, October 25, 2009

bitter

congrats liverpool. you found your very own referee.
call me bitter.
yes i am very bitter now.
can't complain much on the utd performance. we are not as good as liverpool. i admit it.
but the referee-ing standard is stunningly low.
how can lucas fouled so many times but not getting booked?
how can carragher not being send off when he fouled owen as the last defender?
and torres is doing a very good job to deceive the referee by diving around. clap clap
mascherano? yes he was sent off. but should be earlier. he conducted a series of bookable offenses before he is getting the red card when vidic only fouled twice. very great!
rafa benitez just save his job. but not sure when is the next crisis for him. we will look on.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Dimmu Borgir



this is an awesome black metal band from norway. you christians might not like it coz their songs are very extreme towards satan. but fuck it, i like the music i don't care about the lyrics, and i am ok with it if they worship satan. this is good music!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Chthonic闪灵



this is the best black metal band in asia.
i have heard of them few years ago but never really try to find some of their songs to listen to it. but i happened to see them on youtube with a random click then i was amazed! these guys was in the Ozzfest in 2007. the first ever asian band to join in the Ozzyest. they make taiwan proud and they make us chinese proud to perform in such a prestigious event.


闪灵ROCKS!!!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

We are the champion.....AGAIN!!!

Manchester United has done it again. winning the title 3 times in a row is not an easy job. it shows that we are truly the best team in England. not liverpool not chelsea , of course not arsenal.
another remarkable fact is that United had won more english league title than any other team does except liverpool which is 18. but when was the last time liverpool lift the trophy? well, long long time ago that you will start you story with "once upon a time...."
liverpool did pose a great threat for United to retain the title this season. to be honest i was impressed by their good form this season. they usually can't survive through the hectic december fixtures. the main problem for their team is the squad depth. they can't afford to lose gerrard and torres. these guy were the key factor for liverpool to climb up to this position for this season. comparing torres to any United striker, i would say he has better scoring touch than any of the United strikers. but he doesn't not have the aggression of tevez, the controlling ability to bring others into play of berbatov, the power of rooney and the skills and precission of ronaldo. steven gerrard, he has got great mentality and technique to claim that he is one of the best midfielder in the world. i have no argue that none of the United midfielder has the standard like him and perform consistantly throughout the whole season. but 1 player is not enough. although we don't have a player like gerrard, but carrick can control the midfield like gerrard does; anderson can execute a killer pass like gerrard does; fletcher can connect the defensive and attacking line like gerard does; scholes definitely has more experience than gerrard does, changing sides like gerard does; giggs can dribble better than gerrard, especially down the left, his teritory; park is more energetic than gerrard.
what? other liverpool midfielder? you got to be kidding me. none of them match a single United midfielder.
defensive wise, carragher? arbeloa? skrtel? hyypia? aurelio? who?
there is no other defensive line better than United's do.
with ferdinand and vidic paired up perfectly in the centre and evra and o'shea down both flanks. this is the best defensive line ever. who can say that ferdinand and vidic are not at their best when they help United to achieve a 23 matches clean sheet.
john o'shea has made a incredible performance for United this season. he has called up to filled in the right back position which left by gary neville's injury and rise up to the standard to help United to secure the title. he played equally good in left back and centre back position. obviously, liverpool doesn't have a player this versatile.
other than o'shea, we have got rafael, brown and neville in the right back position. unfortunately brown and neville missed out the most of the matches in this season.
evra might not be a very solid defender, but he has got no problem running down the left flank to provide the attacking force. especially playing the one-two with ronaldo.
liverpool doesn't have the quality young player too. macheda, welbeck, rafael, fabio, gibson, evans, eckersley and possebon are the young stars at old trafford. not even the young gunners at arsenal can compete with them.
maybe you will say spending big money give us success. yeah we do. splashing in the money can get the players we need in the squad. so why not? but even big money can't help us sign aaron ramsey which was lost out to arsene wenger. torres to liverpool. mikel and robben to chelsea. others choose United. why? because they think they can achive what they want here, and they do. do you think ronaldo will be the world best player in arsenal? do you think rooney will grow into a world class striker like now in everton? and i can say that torres will be the best striker in the world if he is in the United squad now.
liverpool did spent big in the transfer window. robbie keane? 20+ million? for half a season? what a joke.
overally, United is the best team in England this season and we will see if they are the best team in Europe in a couple of week.


don't be too dishearten liverpool fans. there's always next season. but i don't know how many seasons are you willing to wait.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Newcastle United 3-1 Middlesborough

fascinating performance by Newcastle!
Obafemi Martins the super sub, not forgetting Lovenkrands. They both scored the vital goals Newcastle needed.
Newcastle are definitely staying up!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Arsenal 1-3 Manchester United

The title says it all, we are marching to Rome. magnificent display by United. we should have gotten a clean sheet but the bad penalty decision gave Arsenal a consolation goal. that was a fair and perfect tackle from fletcher. i hope the UEFA would revoke the red card. they should.
i truly don;t expect the 3-1 scoreline because i expect MORE! and we deserve more goals. at least 5 i would say. and Arsenal should not get that goal. anyway, good performance and i am very satisfied with the result. let see which team will meet United in the final. well i hope its barcelona.

(i am going to bed, will edit this post with details maybe tomorrow.)